The Silence of the Tomb and the Death of the Ego – When the Soul Meets God
- Beata
- Jun 17
- 5 min read
Updated: Jul 24
The silence of the tomb and the death of the ego is not a sign of defeat but a sacred invitation. In this reflection, we enter the quiet place where the soul meets God—not through striving or proving, but through surrender. Through the story of Hannah and insights from Scripture, Jung, and Lenczewska, discover how letting go of control allows the soul to be reborn in truth and grace.
☕I Don’t Like Routine, But I Love My Morning Coffee With Abba — The Silence That Opens the Gates of the Soul ☕
I don’t like routines. I never have.
Some say it’s ADHD — maybe. Or maybe I just have a soul that chafes against suffocating patterns.
But there’s one habit I cherish like a childhood blanket: morning coffee with Abba. ☕
A quiet place. A whispered prayer. A familiar Presence.
The setting may change — hotel room, a bench in the park, cabin in the woods — but His Presence doesn’t.
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Some days, it’s like a fairytale: sunlit silence, birdsong, perfect prayer conditions.
But today... something felt off.
I woke up rested. No drama. No obvious reason. And yet — uninvited thoughts crept in like rude guests. Discouragement. Frustration. Irritation. No logic. Just noise.
So I opened the Bible, hoping for calm. Instead, I got a divine ambush. (Matthew 5:38–42) Three in one!
“Turn the other cheek…Give your cloak…Go the extra mile…”
Wait — what?
Seriously, Lord? You mean that? All of it?
I can do the two thousand steps. Sure.
I can give my coat. I have spares.
But not resisting evil? Taking emotional punches in silence?
My soul recoiled like a child. So I grabbed my “Sacred Notebook” — where I meet God in raw honesty — and asked:
“Lord, what are You really saying to me today?”
Then I opened A Word by Alicja Lenczewska — p. 162 — and read:
“Suffering that can save is grace, and it must be received with joy.”
“The silence of the tomb is only apparent — the death of the body brings fullness of soul.”
“You open your mind to thoughts that destroy you, instead of listening to Me.”
That’s when the pieces started falling into place — slowly, like a 2,000-piece puzzle.
Suddenly I saw: This Gospel isn’t about letting evil win. It’s about not answering from the same place where the wound was made.
It’s not about passivity. It’s about freedom from revenge.
🎲 Life Like Tic-Tac-Toe: The Spiritual Game
Life is like a game of tic-tac-toe.
Sometimes you win. Sometimes you don’t.
But the real miracle? You can start again —Not in retaliation, but in resurrection.
Not needing to prove your worth.
Not seeking false justice.
Just starting a new round, with God as the main player.
Jung and the Battle of Soul vs. Ego
Carl Jung said:
“The soul is born where the ego dies.”
And it finally clicked: The soul doesn't turn the other cheek out of fear. It does so from a place of freedom.
It’s not surrender to evil — it’s surrender of control.
Jesus doesn’t offer a moral rule. He offers a transformation path.
Because resistance can harden the heart — and a hardened heart cannot hear God.
🌿 Reflection: The Silence of the Tomb
Sometimes, silence doesn’t soothe us — it hits the sorest spot.
But maybe that’s when we’re the closest to God —when the masks drop, and we let Him speak… even if it hurts.
The tomb sounds like the end.
But Christ says otherwise: It’s the birthplace of new life.🕊️
Lenczewska writes:
“The death of the body gives fullness of the soul.”🕊️
Jung echoes:
“The soul is born where the ego dies.”🕊️
Three languages. One truth:
When we stop fighting for ourselves, we start living for God.
🌺 Saintly Death: Not Perfection, But Presence
Holiness isn’t being flawless.
It’s the increasing presence of God in me — and decreasing need to control.
It’s giving away the cloak because I know He will cover me.
It’s choosing not to retaliate because His fire already burns in me.
Holiness is the soul no longer afraid to die to the world —because it has rooted itself in eternity.
🕊️ A Biblical Woman: Hannah, Mother of Samuel - The Silence of the Tomb and the Death of the Ego
Take Hannah, the mother of the prophet Samuel.
She was mocked, misunderstood, childless, aching.
Her ego could’ve lashed out — at God, at people.
Instead, she wept in silence at the temple.
In her heart, illusions died.
Dreams of quick answers. Recognition. Control.
Each disappointment, each tear, every year of God’s silence —was like a slow death of the self that tried to fight by human strength.
But in that interior death, something far greater was born.
A soul no longer needing proof. A soul that knew God — not through fulfilled wishes, but through unwavering Presence.
And then — when everything in her stilled —God spoke.
Not through thunder or miracles, but through Eli —a flawed priest, a broken vessel:
“The Lord has heard your prayer.”
Hannah conceived Samuel — prophet of Israel’s new dawn.
But the real miracle wasn’t the birth.
It was the soul reborn before that —the one that no longer begged for justice, but rested in trust.
She met God face to face.
Not symbolically. Not vaguely.
But in the deep silence, in truth, in spirit.
She became a living metaphor: A soul whose relationship with God didn’t depend on the gift —but on the Giver.
Questions to Hold
✨ Instead of asking, “Am I right?” — ask, “Is this bringing me closer to God?”
✨ When you feel defensive — pause and ask, “What wound just got touched?”
✨ Don’t fight your thoughts. Discern them. Which are echoes of a wounded ego?
Grave-Silence is Not Emptiness
The silence of the tomb is not the absence of life —it’s the space where the soul finally breathes again.
Maybe the thing that hurts the most today isn’t your weakness…
…it’s the very place where God wants to birth holiness in you.
🌿 Invitation to the Heart
Do you carry deep desires that ache? Questions without answers?
Pause — like Hannah — not to fight God, but to let Him touch you.
Give Him not only your request, but your fatigue, your fear, your silence.
It’s there, where control ends, that relationship begins.
🕊️ Say this today: “I don’t need proof — I need You.”
📖 Read 1 Samuel 1. Let the Word shape your soul.
✨ Are you ready to let the part of you die that always needs to win, to defend, to control?
Are you ready to live from the soul, not the ego?
💬 Share your story or whisper a one-sentence prayer in the comments.
Your word might be light for someone still searching in the silence.
🕊️ ☕ 🕊️ Morning Prayer
Abba, thank You for coffee, silence, and even my wandering thoughts.
Teach me to listen to the voice of the soul, not the ego.
Teach me to lose in the world’s eyes, so I may win Your gaze.
Let my love come not from fear, pride, or pressure —but from You.
Amen.
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